When the Lights Go Out by Mary Kubica Review

The blurb is going to be longer than my "review" but there's a reason besides my laziness.

When The Lights Go Out by Mary Kubica
Audiobook Deceptive Fiction, 9+ Hours

Released September 2018
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A woman is forced to question her own identity in this riveting and emotionally charged thriller by the blockbuster bestselling author of The Good Girl, Mary Kubica 

Jessie Sloane is on the path to rebuilding her life after years of caring for her ailing mother. She rents a new apartment and applies for college. But when the college informs her that her social security number has raised a red flag, Jessie discovers a shocking detail that causes her to doubt everything she’s ever known.

Finding herself suddenly at the center of a bizarre mystery, Jessie tumbles down a rabbit hole, which is only exacerbated by grief and a relentless lack of sleep. As days pass and the insomnia worsens, it plays with Jessie’s mind. Her judgment is blurred, her thoughts are hampered by fatigue. Jessie begins to see things until she can no longer tell the difference between what’s real and what she’s only imagined.

Meanwhile, twenty years earlier and two hundred and fifty miles away, another woman’s split-second decision may hold the key to Jessie’s secret past. Has Jessie’s whole life been a lie or have her delusions gotten the best of her?

These Are My Thoughts

I was going to write a real review for this book but it doesn’t deserve it. 

This book made me so crazy-mad that I am not going to waste my time. Up until the last quarter or so I would’ve rated it a 3 ½. It was holding my attention even though some of the themes; the insatiable baby-lust, the absent husband who may or may not be cheating, etc. were all too familiar after just finishing up this author’s novel Pretty Baby. So close, in fact, that I may have mixed them up a time or two in my head but that's my fault not the book and the book wasn’t awful by any means. There were lots of secrets lurking and I really did want to keep reading to discover them all until the big reveal was unleashed upon me . . . 

It was weak, manipulative, over-used, unoriginal, and the lamest of lame-ass plot reveals. I couldn’t believe what the author had just done to me. I still can’t! I feel cheated, misled and more disappointed than mere words can say.  

And for that this book is getting a VERY generous 2.

If you don't want to read this but are nosy like me and want to know why I'm raving like a loon here's the "reveal".

The big reveal?! So the main character spends most of the book in a grief haze and realizes she has no birth certificate and that her social security number belongs to a long dead girl and realizes her mom was keeping secrets until it's revealed that it was all a freaking DREAM! A dream. What is this 1980?! I feel so used.

2 out of 5